Cansu/22/sophomore architecture student who is in love with cinema, Istanbul, indie/alternative music, photography, architecture and stage&film design.
I love everything about One Tree Hill (probably my favourite thing ever), Harry Potter, Himym, Friends, retro games and nerdfighter community.
My all time favourite movies are; Big Fish, Inception, Hugo, High Fidelity, Being John Malkovich, Back to the Future, Star Wars, Scott Pilgrim vs the World, Toy Story, Juno, The Breakfast Club and Howl's Moving Castle.
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My Music Taste: http://www.lastfm.com.tr/user/NoNsense7
Years ago, I promised myself that the first thing I would do on my 23rd birthday is to listen 23 by Jimmy Eat World. I can’t believe how the years passed so quick. Honestly, I’m not ready to be 23.
I’m not ready to grow up. I always imagined myself being in a certain state of mind, at a certain place that I’ve belonged but I’m too far away than this person I want to be. I feel like I should have figured out at least some parts of my life but I’m lost than ever. I feel unworthy, I feel alone and I feel that I’m not getting what a deserve.
One Tree Hill had a huge influence on me when I was growing up. It helped me to figure out exactly the person I want to be, the people I’d like to be friends with, my need for unconditional love. It even helped me staying hopeful when I was trying to get to my dream. It’s funny that even though I’m not religious, this show gave me this feeling that I need something to believe in. Not something in particular but something that would keep me going when I’m having hard times. 23 is not a just number, it has a meaning for me. I don’t know what it’s meaning is, but somehow I feel kind of safe and peaceful that I’m finally 23.
As Peyton says on One Tree Hill, “Yes, losing your heart’s desire is tragic. But gaining your heart’s desire? That’s all you can hope for. This year I wished for love… to immerse myself in someone else and to wake a heart long afraid to feel. My wish was granted. And if having that is tragic, then give me tragedy. Because I wouldn’t give it back for the world. ”
Last year I didn’t wish for love. Actually, I didn’t wish for anything. I was hopeless, I gave up all my wishes because I never been truly happy for a long long time. I’ve been through a lot lately, I’m in a situation that I should feel more hopeless than ever maybe. But I don’t want to do that. I’m not going to do that.
This year, I wish for love. And this year, my wish will come true.
23 will be my best.
If you’re an archi student you’ll ask yourself this existentialist question at least once - ‘What am I doing here?’
words of wisdom from our history of western architecture lecturer. (via archistudent
April Come She Will
Simon & Garfunkel
Simon and Garfunkel //April Come She Will
April, comes she will,
When streams are ripe and swelled with rain.
May, she will stay,
Resting in my arms again.